Dorothy Parker

General Review of the Sex Situation

Woman wants monogamy;

Man delights in novelty.

Love is woman's moon and sun;

Man has other forms of fun.

Woman lives but in her lord;

Count to ten, and man is bored.

With this the gist and sum of it,

What earthly good can come of it?

Dorothy Parker, 1926

P.S.: Yes, I just found my new favourite author!

The Abstract

"We miss the abstract when we comprehend.
We miss it most when we aspire, - and fail."

-Elizabeth Barrett Browning, Aurora Leigh, fifth book

"a touch of earth"

" . . . but, friend, to me
He is all fault who hath no fault at all:

For who loves me must have a touch of earth"

- Tennyson, Idylls of the King, "Lancelot and Elaine"

The Ironies in Life

"So, throughout life, our worst weaknesses and meannesses are usually committed for the sake of the people whom we most despise."

"All other swindlers upon earth are nothing to the self-swindlers, and with such pretences did I cheat myself."

-Charles Dickens, Great Expectations

A nightmare erred

Violently I shook
With tears of sorrow
or rather of fear.
I don't quite know.

Of this I'm sure:
It's a nightmare erred.

Silently I pondered
the question "Why";
To this none answered
And I'm left in a puzzle.

Of this I'm sure:
It's a nightmare erred.

Secretly I hope
it's just a joke-
that it's April Fool!
a little overdue.

Then I'll know for sure:
It's a nightmare erred.

of Beauty

Every now and then,
I shift my beauty-starved eyes
from the monitor screen,
from the books and notes.

I leave the air-conditioned room
and roam in the cool night air,
drinking in the beauty of God's creation
like a vagabond in the desert
who stumbled upon an oasis.

I lift my head
and feast my eyes upon the beauty-
to which none can compare.

I froze in awe and wonder.

But I do that
only once in a while.
For norm is the cruel murderer of beauty.

Bookworm-athon

Just a little bragging (and sharing!). I went through 5 books this summer (so far!). Good reads they are!

1. Mansfield Park by Jane Austen
2. Why? by Vernon Brewer
3. The Jesus I Never Knew by Philip Yancey (Great book! Very refreshing. Highly recommended!)
4. To Kill a Mocking Bird by Harper Lee (Another amazing book!)
5. What's So Amazing about Grace? by Philip Yancey (Highly recommended!)

Well, if you haven't already realised, I am very proud of myself! It's nice catching up on some reading for pleasure.

PS: Oh, did I mention that I am currently on Baker Street with Sherlock Holmes?

LIFE 101

Professor: The Creator
Class time: Every waking moment

Course Objective
The main objective of this class to allow students to get to know the Creator. This course is also designed to give students the opportunity to make the best of the talents that the Creator has bestowed on each individual and to make full use of the time that the Creator has given to them.

Prerequisites
No prerequisites required, as students are picked out of the dirt, literally.

Textbooks
There are no required textbooks for this course, as the coursework and lesson plan are exclusively unique for each student.
Recommended reference material: Holy Bible. Please be aware that this is not a direct generic solution manual for the coursework involved in this class, but careful and deep study of this material will greatly assist you to succeed in this class.

Attendance Policy
Full attendance is required to pass. Failure to achieve perfect attendance will result in your failing this class.

Coursework
- Assignments: Generally, there will be three (3) major assignments, each given at a different stage throughout the course of this class.
Assignment #1. Childhood: Students are expected to demonstrate obedience to authority.
Assignment #2. Teenage: Students are expected to demonstrate submission to authority when authority is placed over them, and the ability to take responsibility is also expected of students when they are given freedom.
Assignment #3. Adulthood: Students are held accountable for everything and everyone under their care and authority. Students will have to answer for their actions at the end of this course.
- Tests: There will be numerous tests during the course of this class. Tests will not be announced ahead of time. It is the student's responsibility to be prepared at all times.
*Please take note that the coursework for each student differs. This is only a general guideline. Some may have less assignments and more tests.

Grading Rubric
The final grade for this class is taken collectively from the assignments and tests. In order to pass this class, one must acknowledge the Creator and all that He has done.
Grade A: Have a personal relationship with the Creator; Fulfilled the Creator's will; Left behind a legacy.
Grade B: Have a personal relationship with the Creator; Fulfilled the Creator's will.
Grade C: Merely acknowledged the Creator and all that He has done.
Grade F: Failed to acknowledge Creator and all that He has done.

Extra Credit
There are countless extra credit opportunities throughout the course of this class, but they will not be announced in class. It is the student's responsibility to take note and recognise these opportunities.

Have fun taking LIFE 101!!

of Dreams...

I was taught to Dream:
To Dream big and to Dream far;
To reach for the moon, lest I should fall,
I'll still find myself among the stars.

But what is Dream
when I am just a gush of whirlwind?
And what is Dream
as I bathe in tears that flow like a stream?

Still I did dream:
I dreamt big and I dreamt far.
I reached for the moon, and surely I did fall
to find myself among starfishes on the shore.

interesting!

"Ambition.... is a great man's madness,
that is not kept in chains and close-pent rooms,

but in fair lightsome lodgings, and is girt

with the wild noise of prattling visitants

which makes it lunatic beyond all cure."

-Antonio, John Webster's "Duchess of Malfi"

"The misery of us that are born great,

We are forced to woo because none dare woo us"

-Duchess, John Webster's "Duchess of Malfi"

Sweet!

As I was flipping through my diary, I saw these quotes that I had taken down:

"I have not broken your heart- you have broken it; and in breaking it, you have broken mine."

"I forgive what you have done to me. I love my murderer- but yours! How can I?"

-by Heathcliff, Charlotte Bronte's "Wuthering Heights"

'The Shawshank Redemption'

It is my exam week, yet within less than 24 hours, I managed to watch the same movie twice on DVD. Well, that really tells how remarkable the movie is! It is indeed one of the best ones I've watched so far. Hands down.... So, ladies and gentleman, presenting to you 'The Shawshank Redemption', starring Tim Robbins and Morgan Freeman.

The movie is set in a prison. It is about a man who was wrongly convicted of murder and was sentenced to life imprisonment, and the things that go on in there really startle you and I. But the thing that thugs at my heart string is the message of friendship and hope that is being brought out. Of all places, it is really ironical that such a message is preached from a prison, where it is known to be a place where no one is your friend. And hope? Sounds to me like the most unlikely thing to be found in a prison.

Anyway, here are a few lines that I would like to quote from the movie:

"There are places in the world that aren't made out of stone.....There's something inside that they can't get to, that they can't touch. It's yours."

It is about hope. Hope is the thing that keeps one alive, and it is the only thing that no one can take away from you. Unfortunately, it is also the thing of which many deprive themselves.

They say that hope is a dangerous thing. It drives a man insane. I say hope is a dangerous thing. Without hope, you have no sanity to be driven away. They say the higher your hope soars, the greater the impact of the subsequent disappointment. I say if your hope does not soar, you will not even live to be disappointed. Hope keeps one alive. While it may be your decision to draw in each breath that is directly keeping you alive, it is hope or hopelessness that brings about that decision.

Here's a wonderful poem on HOPE, by Emily Dickinson:

PART ONE: LIFE, Emily Dickinson

Hope is the thing with feathers
That perches in the soul,

And sings the tunes without the words,

And never stops at all,

And sweetest is the gale is heard;

And sore must be the storm

That could abash the little bird

That kept so many warm.

I've heard it in the chillest land,

And on the strangest sea;

Yet, never, in extremity,

It asked a crumb of me.

At the very end of the movie, this was shown on the screen: "This movie was nominated for 7 Academy Awards, including the Best Picture. It won none."

Man: Civilised vs Barbarous

As I was doing revision the other day, I came across a very interesting remark in my Unit 4 Literature text, Alias Grace by Margaret Atwood. It says,

"The difference between a civilised man and a barbarous fiend- a madman, say- lies, perhaps merely in a thin veneer of willed self-restraint."

The 'man' in this context, refers not to the humankind, but to the male sex in particular. It was said in the context of sexual desires. The text was previously discussing the sexual inclination of men, and how women became victims of the lust and personal desires of men.

Hence, in plain words, this remark is saying that, what separates and differentiates say, the fiend who tortured little Nurin from the other 'gentlemen' in our society, is that the latter willfully restraints their actions while the former does not and has thereby given in to his lust. In other words, the remark says that what goes through the minds of all guys is the same. The difference lies in whether those fantasies remain in the mind or are they being put into action.

Hmm.... how interesting... I do not know what goes through the male faculty of thoughts and intelligence, but I sure wonder if I will be surprised and shocked by the discovery of what goes through the minds of these people who cross my path every single day. Will it be an epiphany or will it be an anti-climax?

Guys, do leave a comment to shed light on this issue. Girls, feel free to add on or express yourselves.

CSI Craze

MONDAY = CSI

If you do not know, CSI stands for 'Crime Scene Investigation'. It is a hit series on criminal investigation, showing on AXN. As I do not have Astro, it means catching an older season on NTV 7 every Monday. There's CSI: New York at 8pm, CSI: Miami at 10.45pm and CSI: Las Vegas at 11.45pm. Hence, the above equation. The television set is mine on Monday evenings. Unfortunately, I usually miss the 8pm one as my dinner time is around 8pm.

CSI has become like an addiction for me. It is a must watch, rain or shine, day or night, exam or no exam. Criminal investigation series are nothing new as there are many other such series. However, I think what capture the interest of CSI fans like me are the scandals surrounding the cases (people just love scandals, don't they?) and the usually stunning revelation at the end of the episode (suspense!).

Another aspect that has captured my attention is the portrayal of the characters, not the criminals (they are all the same: either inhumane, insane, or indifferent) but the investigators. The way they interact with each other and with the criminals sure provide a good ground for character analysis. And each team of CSI has its own unique characteristics, making each one just as unique and interesting.

Fellow CSI-kaki, Hon Whi, once asked me who's my favorite: Mac (NY), Horatio (Miami) or Grissom (Las Vegas), and my answer was Grissom. But right now, I think I want to make an about turn and pick Horatio instead. The more I watch the series, the more I fall in love with him.

Mac is just regular. Nothing much about him. Neither good nor bad, lukewarm. Grissom on the other hand, is absolutely good. His goodness is a universal truth. A father figure, nice, kind, friendly. He will be the one who counsels his subordinate and be the first to advocate their promotion is they are deem to be suitable. In fact, he is just too good to be real, so much so that I find it difficult to identify him as a real person. Well, I must commend the producer though, for creating such a down-to-earth guy as Grissom.

As for my dear Horatio (and his trademark shades), he is such a mystery. His cool outward appearance sure disguises his warm heart well. At times he seems to be an emotionless robot who keeps strictly to procedure. But when it comes to his loved ones, or even the victims' family, his heart just melts for them and seeks to help them wherever possible. Of course when it comes to his own brother, he is willing to go as far as to bend the rules for his sake. Now that's human!

Besides being a scientific movie, Grissom's team is actually pretty poetic. There are some quotes from the series that I found really meaningful. When a dead girl lied on the coroner's table, he said this,

"Beauty is skin deep. We're all the same inside."

And as Greg (the new kid in Grissom's team) attended his first post mortem, he said this about life as he saw the body being cut open,

"That's all we really are. It's what we do with it that counts."

Well, CSI is more than just a criminal investigation series. It is indeed an insightful drama. Probably this is why it caught my interest and and the interest of so many others. A wonderful production indeed.

some amazing quotes

Here are some quotes from Wuthering Heights by Emily Brontë which I found amazing. It will be even more amazing if not for the fact that the speakers are married, but not to each other...

"...for every thought she spends on Linton, she spends a thousand on me!"

"If he loved with all the powers of his puny being, he couldn't love as much in eighty years as I could in a day."

"...the sea could be as readily contained in that horse trough, as her whole affection be monopolised by him!"

- by Emily Brontë's Heathcliff in Wuthering Heights

"My great miseries in this world has been Heathcliff's miseries, and I watched and felt each from the beginning: my great thought in living is himself. If all else perished, and he remained, I should still continue to be; and if all else remained, and he were annihilated, the universe would turn to a mighty stranger: I should not seem a part of it. My love for Linton is like the foliage in the woods: time will change it, I'm well aware, as winter changes the trees. My love for Heathcliff resembles the eternal rocks beneath: a source for little visible delight, but necessary. Nelly, I AM Heathcliff! He's always, always in my mind: not as a pleasure, any more than I am always a pleasure to myself, but as my own being."

- by Emily Brontë's Catherine Earnshaw in Wuthering Heights

Food for Thought

Adapted from "I Kissed Dating Goodbye", Josh Harris.

For the girls: The Fine Print of Dreams

I have leveled with the girls- from Anchorage to Amarillo.

I tell them that all marriages are happy.

It's the living together afterward that's tough.

I tell them that a good marriage is not a gift,

It's an achievement.

That marriage is not for kids. It takes guts and maturity.
It separates the men from the boys and the women from the girls.

I tell them that marriage is tested daily by the ability to compromise.

Its survival can depend on being smart enough to know what's worth fighting about.

Or making an issue of or even mentioning.

Marriage is giving- and more important, it's forgiving.

And it is almost always the wife who must do these things.

Then, as if that were not enough, she must be willing to forget what she forgave.

Often that is the hardest part.

Oh, I have leveled all right.

If they don't get my message, Buster,

It's because they don't want to get it.

Rose-coloured glasses are never made in bifocals

Because nobody wants to read the small print in dreams.

For the guys: A Woman's Question, Lena Lathrop

Do you know you have asked for the costliest thing

Ever made by the Hand above?

A woman' heart, and a woman's life-

And a woman's wonderful love.

Do you know you have asked for this priceless thing

As a child might ask for a toy?

Demanding what others have died to win,

With the reckless dash of a boy.

You have written my lesson of duty out,

Manlike, you have questioned me.

Now stand at the bars of my woman's soul

Until I shall question thee.

You require your mutton shall be hot,

Your socks and your shirt be whole;

I require your heart be true as God's stars

And as pure as His heaven your soul.

You require a cook for your mutton and beef,

I require a far greater thing;

A seamstress you're wanting for socks and shirt-

I look for a man and a king.

A king for the beautiful realm called Home,

And a man that his Maker, God,

Shall look upon as He did on the first
And say: "It is very good."

I am fair and young, but the rose may fade

From this soft young cheek one day;

Will you love me then 'mid the falling leaves,

As you did 'mong the blossoms of May?

Is your heart an ocean so strong and true,

I may launch my all on its tide?

A loving woman finds heaven or hell

On the day she is made a bride.

I require all things that are grand and true,

All things that a man should be;

If you give this all, I would stake my life

To be all you demand of me.

If you cannot be this, a laundress and cook

You can hire and little to pay;

But a woman's heart and a woman's life

Are not to be won that way.

in LOVE!

I'm in LOVE! He's sensible, proper, kind, considerate, courteous, generous, loving, caring, selfless, cool AND he is right 99.99% of the time! (and the list goes on and on and on...) He is rich too, VERY RICH (owns a farm! how about that?). Seems to be THE perfect guy! I'm so madly, deeply and hopelessly in love...

Wanna know more about him? Well... he is 37 or 38 years old (kinda old, I know, but I'll be of that age someday...), lives in Highbury, England, specifically in Donwell Abbey (he owns that place, you know. a family inheritance), and has a brother who is married and is residing in London. Really sounds like my Prince Charming, though not many people actually find him charming. His character only appeals to people like me. Unfortunately, he is married... to Emma Woodhouse.

Well, if you haven't realised by now, the guy I am talking about is Mr. George Knightley of Jane Austen's Emma. You must think that I must be really lonely to be fantasising about a fictional character. Maybe I am, but as Ms. Fernandez said, it is good to feel strongly for a character or an event in the text, as it draws us into the text. I indeed have strong feelings for him... very strong! (Is this going a little overboard?)

Anyway, let's get back to reality (drag me back from Dreamland!). Although the character of Mr. George Knightley may be fictional, there are characteristics in his character that are indeed admirable and there are qualities in him that I wish to find in my future partner (whoever he may be). For instance, his clear conscience. He always sees faults that are not apparent to others and (you must admit!) he is correct almost 100% of the time. How can he do that? I guess it is by taking one step back when things get chaotic and judge things from an objective point-of-view, regardless of who or what is the subject matter. I really marvel at how he has the courage and tactfulness in confronting the high-and-mighty Emma (the one woman he loves deeply) with all her mistakes which are often overlooked by others. A sensible man indeed!

Of course, one of his qualities which appeals to me is his generosity and genuine concern for the less fortunate. I salute him for willingly giving up a large share of his yields to the big-mouth Miss Bates and her family, his willingness in providing Jane with a carriage to ferry her around. Although belonging to a higher stratum of society, he has never lost touch with the common people and treated them with just as much love. Oh, of course, my favourite part of the novel-- his reproach of the loud-mouthed, busy body and annoying Mrs. Elton for her self-assuming role as hostess. (way to go George!) Someone really gotta stop the annoyance and disgust she is causing to everyone. Thank you, Mr. Knightley, for saving a whole lotta people! What a fine gentleman he is...

The one most outstanding and admirable quality of his is his selflessness. I stand in awe of his willingness to give up his ego and his financial status in society for the sake of the only woman he ever loves. If a guy were to do that for me, I am so gonna fall for him! Without a doubt, I'd certainly fall head over heels. That is SO self sacrificial! It goes a long way in saying how much he really loves Emma. It is not just a crush he as for Emma, it is true love! Loving without making any sacrifices is not love at all. Hence, you can say that loving someone is not easy. It involves making sacrifices for the other person, and these sacrifices may include things that you are not yet ready to give up. It takes a whole lotta courage to really love someone. But I believe true love conquers all.

George Knightley, though a fictional character, offers us all a very precious lesson on LOVE, a familiar, yet foreign word to all of us. If he exists in real life, I'm so gonna get hold of him. Such a perfect and seemingly flawless man. Of course, if he is a Christian (not just any Christian, but a lover of God!), he'd really be perfect! I just hope that I'll find my Mr. Knightley someday. Well, to all you guys and gals out there who are in love (not with a fictional character like me!): When you decide to love someone (romantically or not), don't just fall in love or have a crush for someone. When you fall in love, make sure you are madly, deeply, and hopelessly in love! Love with all that you are and love with all that you have.

Well, as you may have realised, it's time for me to get into bed! To get into Dreamland...

@grace in theater

There's been some pretty 'serious' stuff in my blog the past few days. Guess it's a kinda deep. Well, let's get back in touch with daily life.

Last week, I went to Kuala Lumpur Performing Arts Center (KL Pac) at Sentul West to watch 'Alias Grace' in theater. It's a monologue, where there's only one person playing the whole of the drama. My Dad went with me as no one else in the family enjoys such a thing (not that Dad enjoys it, but He just accompanied me). The show was at 8.30pm, but we left the house at 6.15pm to beat the traffic (sigh... life in KL), yet we were still caught in heavy traffic for one and a half hours. When we were at Sentul, we stopped by to ask for directions.

Upon entering Sentul West, I felt as it we were somehow being teleported to another dimension. Sentul West was like a world by itself with brilliant landscaping and, not forgetting the scene by the beautiful Sentul lake (didn't even know the existence of the lake!); all these contrasting the rundown and drunkard-filled streets of Sentul. So great was the difference!

We managed to reach the destination on time and still had time for dinner (supposingly...). After collecting our tickets, we went to check out the caféteria and, guess what??! There was a set of meal, comprising of a sandwich and a can of soft drinks (not Perriere or d'Esprit, but merely 100 Plus and Coke) priced at RM 10++! It'd be better if they just rob the bank! So we went out to look for food, but the Sentul was just so 'ghetto-like' that we went into a sundry shop and grabbed bread and bottled drinks as it was already 8.15pm. sigh...

The show was not a disappointment at all! I enjoyed it tremendously. Couldn't leaves my eyes from Caroline Lee (the actress). She could memorise the whole script that lasted for like one hour and 45 minutes. The script was equivalent to approximately half of my text book which I took couple of months to finish! I was amazed! Dad, on the other hand, didn't enjoy it quite as much. The only thing he remembered from the show was:

"Needles and pins, needles and pins;
When a man marries, his trouble begins."

That was the only thing he told Mum when we went back home. haha... I started wondering how can my family be so different from myself. We are a family. We are supposed to be as one, but I seemed to be the odd one out. hmm....

Anyway, it was a beautiful experience. Among the things I remember most about the trip are the show itself (of course!) and the amazing landscape around, not forgetting the blind man who was playing the grand piano at the lobby of KL Pac!

According to HARDY...

"A man should be only partially before his time: to be completely to the vanward in aspirations is fatal to fame. Had Philip's [Alexander the Great's father] warlike son been intellectually so far ahead as to have attempted civilization without bloodshed, he would have been twice the godlike hero that he seemed, but nobody would have heard of an Alexander."

- Thomas Hardy, 'The Return of the Native'

According to Thomas Hardy, in his book 'The Return of the Native':

"A well-proportioned mind is... one of which we may safely say that it will never cause its owner to be confined as a madman, tortured as a heretic, or crucified as a blasphemer. Also, on the other hand, that it will never cause him to be applauded as a prophet, revered as a priest, or exalted as a king... [It enables] its possessors to find their way to wealth, to wind up well, to step with dignity off the stage, to die comfortably in their beds, and to get the decent monument which, in many cases, they deserve."

Well, then Jesus must be OUT OF HIS MIND!! Let's look at some analyses:

1. 'never cause its owner to be confined as a madman': When Jesus claimed to be God, some resorted to calling HIM a lunatic.
   

   "I am trying here to prevent anyone saying the really foolish thing that people often say about Him: I’m ready to accept Jesus as a great moral teacher, but I don’t accept his claim to be God. That is the one thing we must not say. A man who was merely a man and said the sort of things Jesus said would not be a great moral teacher. He would either be a lunatic — on the level with the man who says he is a poached egg — or else he would be the Devil of Hell. You must make your choice. Either this man was, and is, the Son of God, or else a madman or something worse. You can shut him up for a fool, you can spit at him and kill him as a demon or you can fall at his feet and call him Lord and God, but let us not come with any patronising nonsense about his being a great human teacher. He has not left that open to us." -C.S. Lewis, 'Mere Christianity'

2. 'never cause its owner to be... tortured as a heretic': Jesus was an 'unorthodox Jew'; HE healed on a Sabbath (Luke 6:6-11), HE allowed HIS disciples to get food on the Sabbath (Luke 6:1-5), HE let an adulteress go without punishing her (John 8:3-11), HE said HE will tear down the temple and build it within 3 days (Matthew 27:40), HE allowed HIMSELF to be touched by prostitute (Luke 7:36-50)... and the list goes on.


3. 'never cause its owner to be... crucified as a blasphemer': Jesus was accused of blasphemy when HE claimed to be GOD (Luke 5:17-26).


4. 'never cause him to be applauded as a prophet': This what Jesus was (and is) perceived to be. Even up till today, the Muslims and the Jews hailed HIM as a great prophet, and HE was a 'prophet without honour' (Mark 6:4).


5. 'never cause him to be... revered as a priest': This is also what Jesus was called-- the Great High Priest (Hebrews 4:14-15).


6. 'never cause him to be... exalted as a king': Jesus is the King of kings (Revelation 17:14) and at HIS crucifixion, HE was given the title 'King of the Jews' (Matthew 27:37).


7. 'enables it possessors to find their way to wealth': I don't think Jesus was a millionaire. He ate at the home of whoever who welcomed HIM (like Mary, Martha, and Zaccheus) (Luke 9:2-5).


8. 'enables its possessors... to wind up well': I don't think being crucified to death at last is considered as 'winding up well', do you?


9. 'enables its possessors... to step with dignity off the stage': Many times Jesus was driven out of the synagogues and towns for the message HE preached (Luke 4:28-30).


10. 'enables its possessors... to die comfortably in their beds': HE died a death that is most cruel throughout the entire Roman history and the history of mankind-- death on a rugged cross.


11. 'enables its possessors... to get the decent monument which, in many cases, they deserve': No one deserves a monument more than Jesus does; one innocent man who died in place of the sinners in the whole world certainly deserves more than a monument. But what HE got was a denial of HIS innocence and HIS resurrection (Luke 23: 22-24, Matthew 28:11-15).

Therefore, from the above analyses, it seems very clear that, according to Thomas Hardy's theory, Jesus must have had a mind that is, in Hardy's words, not 'well-proportioned'. In modern English, it means that Jesus was out of HIS mind to have done all that HE did. It simply means that Jesus must be crazy! Well, I think so too... Who on earth is stupid enough to die for people who don't even know him, and, knowing him, don't even feel, in the least, a single tinge of gratitude for all that he has done? I'd not met any such person, at least, not until I came to know Jesus. It seems to me that there are only two possible explanations for Jesus' absurd behaviour: (1) HE was, as was concluded from Hardy's words, a complete idiot who had lost HIS mind, or; (2) HE held (and still holds) in HIS heart so great a love that it surpasses all human understanding, and this great love of HIS had driven HIM to accept the death on the cross for you and I. What do you think? You gotta decide for yourself and draw your own conclusion...

"Greater love has no one than this, that he lay down his life for his friends." John 15:13